Monday, March 31, 2008;
2:12 AM
Its the last day that i have my break.... Hurray it however, it marks the last week of my holidays and to Otaku house management, i can no longer commit so much from the following week onwards... Well, and to Xue Yan, i am afraid that i may become busy. I know we will still be able to enjoy our dates together and will still make time for you though you might need to wait for me to complete my work before meeting you, you are still my top priority... I love you dear....
Well, i went down for jamming with the guys today though i was late for 1 and a 1/2 hour, guys i hope you would not blame me as i was completing some clips for my work... Well, i would say that Dilys has a great potential for being a great vocalist... 1st of all, she does have a clear voice... And she can reach a very good pitch that i like.... I can feel it though i only been there for a short period of time.... Nice voice, Dilys...
We headed to vivocity for the 2nd time this week to have dinner and accompany Kelyn for her work... Fun rite??? As Kelyn was working, we decided to catch a movie together... We watched Shutter.... Quite a scary show to me but to the rest it was ok.... Haha..
We waited for Kelyn to end work before accompanying her back. We went to Ho Kee Pau at Aljunied before i headed to Jason's house... Well, thats the day for me... As for next week, i will not be able to enjoy such freedom as my schedule is packed with work again....
I Love You Dear, no matter how busy i am, i will make time for you cuz my heart is always with you.... Dear, rock on and we will be able to be together more in the future... JY as this is your O Levels year... Jerrome will continually be there to support Xue Yan...
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Sunday, March 30, 2008;
12:05 AM
Today was a great day, another day off from work.. Somehow, having this few days off is like a vacation to me. I could do what i want whenever i want to... Work requires discipline. That is the same for school. Discipline is doing things that you don't want to do at the time you most feel like not doing it. That is discipline i would say.
Well, i woke up early in the morning today, say around 11am ( guess many of you will not call that early ) but still, i consider it early actually. Well, and i worked on some video editing up to around 12pm before going to prepare to meet Xue Yan. Left my house at 1230pm. Got into a slight quarrel with my grandmother due to some conflict i had earlier with her. Well, its not so bad after all just that i did not get my daily pocket money. So, today's expenditure was entirely on the leftovers i have in my bank and i would say, its pathetic... However, its ok as i will get my monthly boost from my mom this coming Tuesday so its not so bad after all..
Well, I went to Vivocity with dear dear to walk walk and to find a book called Sky of Love. Its a book for the movie, sky of Love... We looked for such a long time before looking for the sales assistant and in the end, the book was out of stock. Anyway, we had Long John Silver after that. I accompanied Xue Yan to meet Min Min before her tuition and i went to Darryl's place after that to have a game of DOTA... Well, i would say the game was great.... We won the game easily...
At 7pm, Xue Yan's tuition class ended and we headed to City Hall for our dinner, Chocolate Fondue at Cottage Waffle... Great meal i would say... We went over to Otaku house for a chat with Jian Ming than left for home after that. By the time Xue Yan reach home was already 10 plus....
Really enjoy the day with Xue Yan dear dear... Love her so much.... Dear, i love you. Thanks for everything you have done for me. I would say, you did more for me than i can every do for you.... Thanks dear..
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Friday, March 28, 2008;
5:38 PM
Well well, so we did go watch Step up 2 yesterday. It was a great movie. However, if you had expectations after the 1st Step up movie, than this show is not as good. The dance steps were cool though...
After the movie, Jie Xian and i met up with Darryl @ speedy for a few games of Dota... It was really bad we just kept losing and worst of all, we din have much of teamwork. As this weekend is my break from work, i am really gonna enjoy all my days without having to go for work.. I swear i wun go to Suntec City after i stop working at Otaku house.....
I miss dear so much that i am beginning to feel very tired when i dun get to cya... Luckily, the weekend is finally here and i will get to see you soon Dear Dear, I love you so much that i cant wait to cya this saturday...
my heart is always with Xue Yan Dear Dear
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Thursday, March 27, 2008;
10:48 AM
Yea today is a break for me... This week has ended in terms of working.... Now i feel so much better.... Almost fell sick yesterday. Even Aunty Belinda says that she could see that i am falling sick. Therefore, the break could not have came at the right time. I will be meeting Shalyn today to watch Step Up 2. Finally can watch the movie le... I wanted to watch this show since the sneaks and finally, someone could watch with me.
Anyway, i got Heng Yu to come to Otaku house to pei me yesterday afternoon as i was feeling bored... The whole damn place was so quiet and i really needed some company. Xue Yan told me she got emo cause noone accompanied her through the rehearsal... I felt that way too.. I mean, when working, if noone were to talk to me i will feel emo too.. Dear, its not a wierd thing to feel. I hope she will not feel this was anymore cuz i am always with her
Ok... Will update my blog after the movie today...
Dear, you JY in school ok? This few days are my rest days and i will do something constructive.. I love you and cant wait to cya on Saturday.. Dun allow your moods to control you k? I will always be there for you no matter what happens..
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Wednesday, March 26, 2008;
9:44 AM
Well Well, today will be my last day of working for this week. After that, i can have more time to hang out with all my friends. I will be working a full shift today which is as equally taxing as working on Sunday.. Feeling slightly sick le. Today is the RP graduation day and i am feeling a little sad as i am unable to go for it. Haven graduate yet. 1 more semester to go before graduation for me.
Had a boring day yesterday, Monday was also a boring day. Anyway, when i do not get to see my Dear Dear, everyday seems extremely boring. I went to office after work yesterday just to watch bleach and wait for Jason to end his work. Boring right? I guessed so too. Anyway, its the middle of the week le and i just have to endure this few more days before i can see Dear Dear again. Trying my best to cope with what i have.
Will be going to work soon. Wanted to update my blog yesterday but was feeling too tired to do so and as i have promised, i slept before 1230am. Therefore, i will only update my blog every morning from now onwards
Love you Dear, will jiayou for my work. You must jiayou in sch ok?
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Monday, March 24, 2008;
8:05 PM
Hi guys, i did not update my blog for 2 days le... How many of you still staying tuned to it? Haha actually, i wanted to blog yesterday but due to the promise i made, to sleep before 1230, i tried not to blog in the night. Anyway, my mac has a few softwares to help me with my work le... For example, i have final cut pro le... Soon, i will do video editing on this mac.
I worked for 12 hours again yesterday but luckily, Aunty Belinda was working too and she got me lunch and dinner... Haha i also had Dear Dear to keep me working. I am very happy yesterday and of cause, i slept before 1230 am as promised... Anyway, i was very tired yesterday also
As for today, i am currently at Windez's house and we are playing Dota with my Mac.... How gay.... Really love the graphics.
Love you Dear, cant wait to cya on Friday :)
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Sunday, March 23, 2008;
12:03 AM
I Love you Dear ( Taken with my Macbook Pro)
Went out in the after noon today a went to buy some stuff to protect my mac and it turned out that i spent lots of cash today... Almost $200 to protect quite a number of parts of my mac book pro and currently, the only part that i have yet to protect is the lcd screen.. Will do it soon otherwise, might have alot of dirt soon...
Anyway, today was a great day for me... To start, i got to use my mac to watch anime and i am currently downloading some of the programs that i need for my work.... If only it is cheaper, i might consider buying the original but when i checked the price today, it was more expensive than anything... Imagine i have to say goodbye to $1300 for that software. Its totally unimaginable.
I really love my Dear Dear as she really gave me a great day by meeting up and having dinner with me at gelare. Though it was not really dinner more of juz eating. However, i really had a great time... Not only did we ate we also had a nice chat at Gelare. I would miss her for the next week as i would not get to see her until maybe Saturday and as i say, "maybe". Will be praying hard that we would be able to meet up. Due to some wrong doings in the past, i promised Dear Dear that i would rest by 1230am and therefore, i will not write more.
As she is afraid that i would miss her, she took this photo on my HP to rmb her
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Friday, March 21, 2008;
11:15 PM
Wow today i took afew photos with my macbook pro de photo booth... These are the pictures we took. Anyway, i swapped shift with Jian Ming today and managed to work in the morning, thus allowing me to meet up with Xue Yan.
Thank god for this cool arrangement... Love my Dear
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6:54 AM
haha wondering why i waked up so early? i also dunno why.... Just thought that my Macbook was so gay that i decided to wake up early to update my blog. Now i feel so tired but i am working morning today so its like just nice... Really thank Jian Ming for switching shift with me so that i can meet Xue Yan after my work today. This macbook pro really looks very compatible for a video person like me, find that it is one of the best if not the best laptop in the world with such good graphics sound etc...
Haha sounds like i am a salesperson now... Will be going out after work today with Xue Yan, Jason and Shalyn hopefully they will come as Xue Yan wants to meet them... The macbook is currently my 2nd girlfriend, after Xue Yan.. Dear, you are still my top priority and i love you more than anything in this world.
ZZZ feel like going back to sleep but at the same time, i cant cuz i just wun fall asleep... Thanks dear for understanding my concerns yesterday... And thanks for helping me deal with the problems.. Looking forward to seeing you today... Thank you for being in my life :P <3
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Thursday, March 20, 2008;
6:30 PM
This is a new post, using my macbook pro... After weeks of anticipation and desire, this top quality device is finally here... Typing on the keyboard couldnt have felt better... Really love this thing.... Cant wait for school to reopen now...
I am actually having quite mixed moods today... Happy with getting the mac but pissed with some other thing... Really couldnt help it...
Shall continue playing with this shit.... Will reupdate my blog again.... Haha cant wait for the weekends to come faster.
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Wednesday, March 19, 2008;
11:40 AM
I would say i am starting to miss Xue Yan more and more after so many days of not being able to meet her. Guess it is beginning to affect my mood and affect my ability to think carefully. Well, this is for the good of everyone. Guess i will take it as a training so that when the O levels does come along, she can concentrate and focus on her studies. Worked yesterday morning. Quite boring i would say there was not much people at Suntec guess cuz school have reopened. i guess our customers are mainly teenagers and when school starts, very few students will come over to walk and that have affected us quite badly.
Went to Speedy with Darryl and Heng Yu after my work to play DOTA. I would say that i did pretty badly. Couldn't do much of combos... Sorry guys, even though Heng yu kept blaming Darryl for playing badly, it is cuz of my many mistakes that caused us to lose all 4 games in a row. Guess i am distracted as i kept thinking of Xue Yan. Tot that by playing Dota, i would be able to keep myself occupied and stop myself from thinking abt you but its not the case as i will still think of you. So sorry guys.
I have to apologize to Xue Yan also... sorry that when you called i was also distracted by the game and made you feel like hanging up. in my heart, i wanted to continue talking to you but my brains were distracted by the game... Haha i know it sounds confusing but yea thats the way i felt... Went to HMV yesterday and spent $20.95 getting the MUSE Live in Wembley. Yea man its finally out... So glad... i will go upload Dear's photo now after so long and so many promises and not doing it.... Kinda lazy... haha but i noe i cant drag it any longer so yea will go do it now
I LOVE Xue Yan
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Tuesday, March 18, 2008;
9:31 AM
Did not update yesterday night... too tired. Well, yesterday was a boring day for me... Went all the way to Jurong entertainment center at 4 plus. I was finishing up my yuan lai wo bu shuai yesterday morning. A great show indeed. I chionged it the previous night and as 1 episode was 1hr 30 mins, only managed to sleep around 3 plus. Yea and in the morning as i was watching the show, it is one of the reasons why i did not update my blog. At the same time, i was also chatting to my mom on the macbook pro. She was also telling me to take good care of my health... imagine wad would happen if i told her i worked for 12 hrs almost without a break on Sunday.
Anyway, yea i met Jeff and Nehemiah at Jurong and we went to have KFC.... Wa lao i go all the way there to have them accompany me for lunch at kfc... Sounded quite stupid i know and guess what, Jeff went home after that and i went to Nehemiah's place. He was like pestering his mother to buy him a memory stick.. haha that was really funny. He told his mom its a computer card.... Anyway, i fell asleep at Nehemiah's room.. guess i was too tired. We went to Yishun to Keith's house as he would than bring Nehemiah to buy the "computer card"... I was in for a surprise at his house as he owns a silky terrier and somehow, it was so excited to see so many people that it kept on barking and wagging its tail. As i sat on the sofa, the dog jumped up to the sofa and guess what, gave me a kiss... I was shocked and banged my head against the window grill.. ZZZ so painful.... They started to make fun of me after that....
As we left Keith's house, i went down to dhoby ghaut to meet Heng yu to play lan... Played till 11 plus than went home. During that time, Dear called me a few times. By right when playing dota, any distraction will cause you to lose but as i was on the phone, Dear's voice seem to have helped me to kill more.... Dear, maybe thats what they call the power of love..
i LOVE you.... Will do the photos for you after my work today... Sorry for the drag... Din really have much time at home the past few days. Promise to do it today. <3
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Sunday, March 16, 2008;
11:14 PM
Hi guys, had a hell in a hard time at work today..... So damn tired... Worked from 10am to 10pm.... WOW cant imagine i could do it... Bought 3 bread from bread talk today..... All of them were yummy i could really finish them all in 1 go but apparently, i had to split and eat them at different times... Luckily dear dear reminded me to buy bread today or i would have died... I din even got to eat my breakfast nor did i get to eat my lunch.... All i ate for this 2 meals were bread..... ZZZZ and Jason only came down to find me at only 8pm in the night... Ordered KFC to eat.... Settled all my meals in the shop.....
I feel so tired now... I really dun understand why have i agreed to take a 12 hour shift today... Anyway, if you guys know, in the sales line, 12 our shift without break is not allowed by law.... ZZZZ almost died in the shop and if i din have my Dear Dear Xue Yan to pei me through the hours, i would most probably have bored to death there... Really thankful to Xue Yan that she pei me through my work times... Dear, i will be there for you as you were there for me when i most needed you....
I really cant imagine my life without Xue Yan.... She seems like the only motivation in my life now.... Looking forward to my mom's reply on the Macbook Pro... Love you dear, thanks for all the hapiness.. Thankful to my mother as well... Thankful to all the females that have been in my life... :)
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Saturday, March 15, 2008;
11:46 PM
haha.... So i went to work today and though i was very shagged, i was feeling stressless for the first time at work.... haha din care about whether the sales will be good.... i guess i give the heck care and as long as i did my best attitude at work le.... Dun wanna grow more pimples. Today was bad as crowd was little... Very little for a Saturday.... i feel like quitting le... Dunno whether there will be people tml but will try my best.
Went for service after work today.... Quite wierd. this is the first time i accompany Jason and our female vocalist, Kelyn.. When i first saw them today, tot they were together worx..... Haha funny they werent very compatible compared to someone else.... Haha shall not mention name.....
After that, went to accompany my sweet dear dear to eat dinner...my treat for her good results in common test though she did not really admit it saying its not good enuf.... Admit its not good enuf... U can do better de. so you muz show me k? I love you.... Haiz next week will be a slow week for me cuz cant really meet dear dear up le... other than sat... wad i can look forward to next week is only my macbook pro.... i love you dear... Cant wait for Sat to come where i can get to cya.... <3
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10:37 PM
What Tan Jun Leng Jerrome Means |
You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.
You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality.
You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.
You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you. You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries. You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.
You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way. And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life. You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.
You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.
You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.
You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.
You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.
You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.
You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated. You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want. You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way! |
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12:20 AM
Ok make a guess alright? How much does 4 ketangs (potatoes) grown and bred in the USA cost in the food fair at suntec today? Well, from my knowledge by someone who works at Simply Bon bon, that is the aunty belinda, $2.... haha back to the topic... So, as i din work today, i went down to the food fair with Shalyn to have a look and apparently i cant find the store... thats not the point... The aunty very funny keep promoting ketangs and fruits to us when we dun really buy this kind of things de.... Haha anyways, went out with Shalyn today, wanting to buy a pair of shoes and instead, went home with dozens of Taiwan drama dvd.... zzzz hafta chiong them le....
Went to me Xue yan dear dear after her dance... Dear, i love you.... So happy to be able to cya today.... ZZZ all thanks to my work, i dun haf the liberty to do so next week.... Really wanna cya but i cant... Well, actually i could de.... All thanks to some people.... Its not that i dun wanna help but think of it in this way.... how will i feel on Friday, sure damn moody de los. After the whole week of not being able to see Xue Yan dear dear cuz of her school, the worst thing is the best day to meet up is being screwed up by someone, apparently for a reason or without....
Anyway, i will get to cya tml and guess that will lighten me up a little... At the same time, i have gotten news that the macbook pro will only be here next week as my mom's friend is at training and haven checked the delivery status.... Looking forward to meeting my dear and to get my macbook...
Love you dear, nothing can separate me or push me away from you de....
♥
Friday, March 14, 2008;
12:53 PM
Finally wake up.... Yesterday was a tiring day for me... first of all, i am sick and 2nd of all, was made to take full shift... Haha there wasnt much of a problem for me yesterday but it would have been better if i were not sick.. Shalyn came down to find me half way through my work with a packet of fish soup... Feeling much better now but my body is still weak... Guess i will need more rest.
My mother called me last night after my work as i have been pestering her about my macbook pro... She said that she had ordered from the person 3 days ago but she have not gotten back to her as yet... Hope that her friend will not drag the order as i am really looking forward to getting my macbook pro... Haha think it would have been here by the following week but for now, i am really looking forward to its arrival...
Anyway, no one should bully my CJ7.... Whoever does will be subjected to punishment... :P haiz really dun wanna work so many days so please stop forcing me or i may not be able to manage it le... i am feeling so bitter now of having to work friday night.... i never wanted to work on Fridays as it is the only 2 days of the week that i can meet Xue Yan other than Saturday.... Fuck you for not wanting to take the evening slot on Friday.... Fucking pissed.... i will not take saturday no matter wad cuz i will not sacrifice my relationship for a job....
Jason, stop trying to convince me to work more.... Tired, sick and pissed....
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Thursday, March 13, 2008;
9:29 AM
Feeling slightly sick... ZZZ think i have fever le... But the best thing is, i am working full shift today... Really pray that i can pull through today and not faint at the shop. I would say, i am lucky today is not the weekends where there would be alot of customers.... Today will be a long day for both me and Xue Yan.... She has classes from 8 to 6, inclusive of dance and i am working from 1130-1000....
Feeling quite weak now... luckily, i have Xue Yan to give me the encouragement to pull through today... Just finished watching 原来我不帅 episode 9... Getting interesting... However, i can feel a headache actually coming soon.. Din slp well last nite again.... Must really replenish my sleep or i will get weaker.... Will rest immediately after i return home after work today....
Xue Yan Dear dear, you must help me JY today wor... I will help you to JY also... Anyway, Xue Yan already completed a majority of her homework and i am very proud of her..... Just continue to work hard ok??? Will upload your photos tonight.
Jerrome <3 Xue Yan
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Wednesday, March 12, 2008;
10:24 PM
Went to watch The Leap Years with Xue Yan today. Really had fun today... Very nice movie and it was very romantic. But it was not really a blockbuster type of movie. Singaporean movies still have to up its standards to make the mark overseas. I would give this movie a 3/5. However, i will not deny that it is a romantic film.
I met Xue Yan at around 215pm at her house and we went to cathay from there. i went to buy the tickets. Very cheap today for students.... $6 only.... Wanted to watch Step Up 2 but Xue Yan called me to watch only 1 of the 2 movies we selected. Anyway, by the time we were there, Step Up 2 de tix are sold out le. We slacked at Ben & Jerry's after that and as i am having a slight cold, i couldnt eat the ice cream.... Haha anyway i also eat a little of it la. Xue Yan ate lots of it...
The movie, as i said was romantic but as i was slightly sick, i felt quite restless in the theatre. Guess Xue Yan can feel it... Hope my cold will not pass to you... Anyway, after the movie, i thought of going for dinner but the pop corn apparently was too filling and in the end, we went to walk around dhoby ghaut instead...
Had lots of fun today. although the time was quite short, either that or the time simply flew pass.. How i wish i can stay with you longer but i guess not... Jia You in class tml and i will get to cya on Friday again. As for me, i will die in the shop tml but of cuz, i will Jia You. Love you Dear... Enjoy yourself in dance today... When i miss you, i will look at my CJ7... btw, i have named it Xue Yan and it is quite happy with the name :P
Counting down to my Macbook Pro, by right 3 days... But bet it will take longer le..... Mom only sent in the order i guess today.....
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10:59 AM
Good morning dudes, i din sleep well last night..... Haiz think i really have sore throat le. Hafta drop eating all the heaty stuff. ZZZ.. I am so dead... Haha but i think the sore throat is due to not enuf rest plus not enuf water... Haha so tired also.... Woke up so many times through my sleep yesterday night to drink water....
Yea!!!! tomorrow i will be working the whole day. Scary but i am more afraid about Sunday... Anyways, i will be dropping my schedule for the following week onwards... Thats like so cool. Really dun like working so many days a week. Think i will not be scheduling so many days le.... Full days may also not be possible. Possibly, i will get my macbook pro and i may need to bring to school to format it to the dual boot system. Haha....
Will be going to watch movie and have dinner with my dear, hopefully everything will go on smoothly and not have any sudden changes. Love you dear, Cya later :P
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Tuesday, March 11, 2008;
11:50 PM
No work... feels so good... the weather this days are scary. Thunderstorm over at my place. When i went out, the rain was scary. I stubbornly did not want to open my darn umbrella cuz a wet umbrella is very ma fun. For people who knows. Its a hassle to bring a wet umbrella around. Now due to not wanting to open umbrella, i guess i have caught a cold... Sian la..
Today is a great day. Except that, without seeing you, a great day will remain a great day and will never become an excellent day... haha was slacking the whole morning away other than spending some of my precious time in the early morning in RP...
After that i was slacking until very late. My mother must think i very fan... Email her plus tons of SMSes for my macbook pro... She finally did reply to my email... Finally man. She say she will send in the order. So i will trust her for that.
Went to musical practice after that.... To be frank, i dun feel belonged there... Mayb i am just sick. Or is this the issue or i really cant talk to anyone except the 2 jasons and heng yu... juz dun feel right.
Dear, i think i miss you too much le... Finally can cya tml. Therefore, JY for class tml and i will cya after ur class... You are always on my mind... <3
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1:01 AM
Finally ended my work... Felt so shagged haha Today, Teri asked me if i was willing to work afew more days as i have given her a schedule that doesnt look like 1... Its like i can only work less than 5 days for the remaining month... i am so sorry but i wanna be in control on whether i can meet Xue Yan anot. Its not her fault. i wanna be there for her when she can meet me up... Therefore, the drop is quite expected. At the same time, i am tired of working so many days per month. its tiring for me, to be frank... Will try to add back some but due to my curfew, i cant take too many nights, the max is 1 or 2 nights per week.. at the same time, i cannot meet jason for our usual supper for some time le...
Went to have a hair cut today... Haha now my hair looks neater again. Guess will go back and dye when i return to cut again.. The color is quite seasoned le and looks more like my normal black hair... Haha. Today, Xue Yan said that she enjoyed herself... i am happy cuz she had fun... Guess its good for her to take a break once in awhile. I love you, dear... Anyways, i read an article today saying that males are less bothered in relationship compared to gals who are more emotionally attached when in a relationship but as times are changing, guys are being more and more expressive and i guess, i am 1 of the new age guys... Haha guess new aged gals are also becoming stronger and the emotional attachment is getting lesser.
For me, today was a great day... Din haf much stress at work... And the best thing after a hair cut is that, my head feels so much lighter... Wahahahaha thats why, go for a hair cut every few weeks.. Haha than i went for window shopping at Suntec... Found a pair of shoes that i like but its like quite expensive, $122 dunno whether to buy anot. Anyways, i find that nowadays, when i wanna buy something, i hafta think twice le... Financially weaker nowadays....
To end my post, i hafta say, Countdown to macbook pro, 5 more days...
LOVE YOU DEAR, you have my support!!!!
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Monday, March 10, 2008;
12:29 PM
I am going to cut my hair soon... Haha raining now... Today is Monday le... So fast. Soon, i will get my Macbook pro.. Feeling slightly tired now.. My grandma scolded me today cuz my HP rang at 3 plus yest... heng yu ar, next time dun msg me so late... She asked me if my frenz are ghost, 3 plus still dun slp.
Dear had class today. Not sure how it went but she said it was quite boring. Think she is enjoying herself with her frenz now. Therefore, i am not msging her. I decided not to fan her whenever she is busy or doesnt reply my sms until she does. This is due to the fact that i think i shouldnt give her so much stress and at the same time, she will msg me when she feels like it.
Later will cut hair with shalyn den go work... haha this week working very little as usual. Guess will take the time to meet people like Heng Yu. Too long nv hang out with them le.
Anyway, Dear you will still be the top priority but when u have something on, will not disturb you... Gonna get out of house soon. Love you dear. Cya soon :P JY when you start doing your holiday homework later....
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Sunday, March 09, 2008;
11:14 PM
Today was a great day... When expectations are lower, the sense of achievement is great when u achieve far more than that... Started the morning by watching Naruto.... Wahahahaha finally got to see a Sai with emotions... Haha Sai helped Naruto and gang to pin down Kabuto...
After that, Dear Dear came online and i saw her in msn and started to chat with her... Was a great chat though it was nothing much. As i was going towards workplace, i was on the phone with my Dear Dear... Nice chat we had indeed... Din feel like putting down the phone even as i was about to start work... Haha... Dear really rocked my world... The bad patch for us is over finally... Thanks dear for being so understanding....
Really din feel like working in the beginning as i was tired... However, there were some regulars who came over and chatted with me... Thanks to them, the day passed quite fast... After they left, Dear Dear also messaged me... Today, Dear's friend walked past the shop. Stella came. I couldnt remember her and i tot it was another customer due to her height being quite similar to one of our regulars.(Not Suaning anyone) haha i described Stella to dear dear as the japanese looking gal as i forgot her name also.... STM sia....
Anyway, i wanted to meet Timothy today but as i was chatting with dear, din really talk to him... Sorry Tim, it was my bad. PS many of my frenz today... Tim asked dear to bully me as i am a nice guy.... Nice guy, true.... But dun bully me wor... :P
Anyway, Dear JY for class tml and let me noe if you can meet up anot... Haha if going out with frenz den nvm... I LOVE YOU.
♥
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12:49 PM
Key of Heart (BoA) -- English Version
La la la la la la
La la la la la la
Though we are in love
Sometimes we do hurt each other dry and cry
Everyone has a such experience
I don't know the reason why
I could not find the word to get you back
And I turned my back to you going out
I don't want lose your love in fact
Looking for the word
Just a simple word
To open up closing door of your heart
But it's hard to say for me I'm sorry
I don't loose my faith
I don't loose my nerve
Let me go to see you to soy the word
Not to be afraid to face the fear
Is the key of heart
I believe in love, two hearts
I believe in love, two hearts...
Thousands of your smile
Getting back when I look back on those days of us
Now I feel they are still calling me
Maybe you're the same as me
Searching for the chance to make it up now
I believe you to be waiting for me
I'll be with you shortly
Looking for the word
Just a simple word
To open up closing door of my heart
Let me try to say just once I'm sorry
Now I close my eyes
Wishing for your smile
My heart beat is synchronize with your one
Not to make up my mind to reach you
Is the key of heart
To meet in this world
Is just a wonder
Now I want to say I was born to love,
fall in love with you,
live in your future
Open up your door
Wrap me in your arms
Let me dive into your heart once again
To try to keep our story going on
Is the key of heart
La la la la la la
La la la la la la
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12:49 AM
Feeling so much better i emo-ed thru the time that i was working. Guess i must learn to give you the freedom. I know that i am not a very good dar. But i will try my best ok? Thanks for being so understanding. Many of the knots in my heart have been untied. Feeling so much more relaxed now. Dear, after meeting you for a short while today, you lighten me up by so much.
Anyway, today is the first time i went back to service after such a long time.. Quite refreshing.. Sat with the RP group. enjoyed the sermon though i din last thru the 3rd point.... haha but its not my fault wor..... Many people fell asleep too though most of them lasted longer than me... Anyways, i am sorry guys that i couldnt have dinner with you guys.... The meeting dragged too long le. As in the Acts 2 de meeting.
Went to Serangoon to meet Dear after my service. Not only were you not angry with me, you keep apologizing to me... I feel so guilty cuz in the first place, its my fault not giving you the freedom that you deserve. I will from now on, allow to make the decisions on when to meet although if you want me to confirm the place, i would but the time and day will be up to you. This is so that i will not give you any stress. I LOVE YOU and i want you to stay happy. I am so sorry about last week. Lets not bring it up again.
My schedule for next week:
Monday - working at nite
Tuesday - off
Wednesday - off
Thursday - full shift
Friday - off
Saturday - working in the morning
Sunday - full shift
Dear, this is for you if you need it to plan any meet ups... Let me know after you plan... Will try to make it for you... Cuz you are the top priority in my life, no matter how i say you are not, you are... Love you...
Counting down to my Macbook pro, 7 days
♥
Friday, March 07, 2008;
10:47 PM
Disappointed... Yet again... Guess i have to lower my expectations le.... When the expectations is high, when there is failure to achieve it, the mood is adversely affected and in this way, due to my high expectations, i am feeling this sense of heartbrokeness in me....
If only i could be like some people, dun care abt anything, i would have been fine... But that is not my personality. You are my top priority but because of that, i have a very high expectation level on you... Guess its my fault. This week is particularly wierd... Thinking that by taking more off days, i will get to cya more but it is hardly the case. In a sense, i cant hide my disappointment. You told me when term 2 begins, you will see me even lesser. And now, near the holidays? it seems like the problem is within me.... I dun understand. Why am i feeling so aggrieved?
I am afraid that i cant take it.... I am closed to being depressed... So many things i wanted to do... So many things i cant do.... Now i am so cautious about each day... Today started out so well, why must it have to end this way...
Said i was willing to wait... But why am i feeling so heartbroken? Its not that i am feeling angry but i feel very disappointed. Feel like crying out. But it seems like i can only keep it in the deepest part of me... Guess its better to not have any emotions. That way, i wun be able to feel this feeling in me.
This is killing me.... I feel like i am contradicting myself.... Is this what i wanted? Or is this just my single minded thinking and causing this disappointment?
This is a very emo post.... Pls do not take anything in this post to heart.... Just needed somewhere to allow my mood to be expressed. Else, this burden might even cause me to get depressed.....
8 more days to macbook pro..... Cheer up, Jerrome...
Need someone to help me lighten up....
♥
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10:00 AM
Hi everybody, today is a great day!!! No more cold weather after so many days of cold weather... Perfect day for me to resume my work in the morning. Dunno why in the world i like working in the morning compared to the afternoon.... Seems to be more fun working in the morning than in the afternoon. Either that or i will be able to see Xue Yan only if i take the morning shift...
After the reflective post yesterday, i guess its really time for me to put in my full commitment to change. i would say, not only for you, but for myself too. Think i have made too many mistakes le. Now all that matters to me is I love you and You love me... Thats all that matters. Who cares what other people will say....
Anyway, i feel that today will be a very enjoyable day.... its the 7th of March and its payday... Wondering how much did i make this month... wahahahaaha Counting down to my Macbook pro, 8 more days...
Love you dear, you gave me something to work towards and i will make it happen!!! have fun later watching the dance performance.... :P
♥
Thursday, March 06, 2008;
11:51 PM
Feeling so tired. Currently still slacking at Jason's house and since he is taking a nap, took this time to blog.....
I know i have been very unfair to you.... Sorry... Its my fault that i am so over sensitive. I know i have to change. But, can you give me some time? I promise you that to the best of my ability, i will change. I want to give you the best i can but i am plagued by the past.... How can the past affect me so much when i should know that we are not living in the past...
Today is our 2nd month together and i hope you like the gift that i have given you... Coming one of these days, we shall wear it out together.... I am so thankful that you are willing to give me the chance to change....
Went to the IT show today.... Went to have a look at the Macbook pro i will be getting real soon. Anyway, the IT show was damn packed today. Bet it would be worst as the next few days come as it is the weekend.... Spent $25 there for a memory stick pro..... 1gb only for Dear de.... Anyway, will pass u ur new stick tml... Heard there would be a dance performance you would be attending tml.... Enjoy yourelf.
After that, went to Sengkang to look for dear dear, even though its just for a short while... Really thankful that even as you have so much homework you are willing to spend the time accompanying me... You are the best Dear, Dar really appreciate it.
Went to Bugis to accompany Shalyn to buy mother's bdae present..... Haha... Hope your mother will like the present..... Went for dinner at mos burger after that....
Now, blogging at Jason's house.... kinda wierd..... haha anyway, i going home le... Tml still got work in the morning. Maybe after supper.....
Love you Dear, will change myself, will do i promise......
♥
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12:16 PM
Played 2 matches of Dota this morning.... both win.... But its not my merit that i won those matches... Really love the new Muse Live album from Wembley stadium.....
Anyway, i still dunno what time dear's dance is ending.... Will anticipate. Really wanna meet u up even if it is for a short period today. Anyway, Dear must be feeling cold. Nv bring jacket. Worried for you. The weather is so cold... Brrrrrrr.... extremely cold even though i am whole day at home.
Anyway, i am feeling bored right now thats why i am blogging now... 9 more days to my new laptop. Counting down to it.
Dear you have been very understanding. Its me i have been unreasonably over possessive. Guess i have to learn to let go more... Esp after what Jason told me yesterday that the world does not revolve around just the both of us. Learning to let go cuz u deserve your freedom.... Love you so much. You rox....
God, thanks for placing pple in my life to correct me when i am going the wrong way. Especially my brothers and of course my dear, Xue Yan....
♥
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1:05 AM
Challenging myself. I guess i must learn to let go of stuff that are uncontrollable. Almost lost myself to emotions today. Guess its a pendulum effect ba.
My day started with a bloody headache... When i was about to go out, there was damn heavy rain.... Got drenched slightly even though i have got an umbrella. Wanted to go for hair cut today again and there was a new notice. Summer Salon is closed from 5th-10th of March.... At least now i know.... Looking forward to my Macbook Pro... most prob mid march can get according to my dearest mommy. :P
Kinda got very moody when i saw the red recording file at Otaku house today. haha for those working there, you would know what is that. Very bad today... Luckily things did pick up on my shift. Here comes the disappointment that got me moody for quite some time or at least, almost wrecked my day.... Xue Yan says that she has dance on 6th March, our 2nd month anniversary.... As i said it almost wrecked my day.... however, as i said, i have learnt to let go of things that are uncontrollable. Thank you Dear for helping me to conquer my emotions. Changing myself. "Unconditional Love" i am perfecting this but i am still a human and i cant perfect this. However, to the best i can, i will give.
Moral of the day: Life is full of unexpected. Things will only get worst when u expect the better, therefore, start each day expecting the worst.
You look so beautiful today
When you're sitting there
It's hard for me to look away
So I try to find the words that I could say
I know distance doesn't matter
But you feel so far away
And I can't lie
But every time I leave
My heart turns grey
And I wanna come back home
To see your face tonight
'Cause I just can't take it
Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait, I can wait forever
When you call, my heart stops beating
When you're gone, it won't stop bleeding
But I can wait, I can wait forever
You look so beautiful today
It's like every time I turn around
I see your face
The thing I miss the most is
Waking up next to you
When I look into your eyes
Man, I wish that I could stay
And I can't lie
But every time I leave
My heart turns grey
And I wanna come back home
To see your face tonight
'Cause I just can't take it
Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait, I can wait forever
(I can wait forever)
When you call, my heart stops beating
When you're gone, it won't stop bleeding
But I can wait
(I can wait)
I can wait
(I can wait)
I can wait forever
I know it feels like forever
(Feels like forever)
I guess that's just the price I gotta pay
But when I come back home
To feel your touch
It makes it better
(Makes it better)
Till that day
There's nothing else that I can do
And I just can't take it
(I just can't take it)
Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait
(I can wait)
I can wait forever
(I can wait forever)
When you call, my heart stops beating
When you're gone, it won't stop bleeding
But I can wait
(I can wait)
I can wait
(I can wait)
I can wait forever
(Wait forever)
I can wait forever
I can wait forever
(I can wait for the day, 'cause you're gonna come back to me now)
I can wait forever
I can wait forever
I can wait forever
Happy 2nd month anniversary to the both of us.... The sweet moments will always remain in my heart. There are times when i am insecure/jealous. Am i overdoing it? Controlling.... God don't make me overly possessive......
♥
Wednesday, March 05, 2008;
12:28 PM
So sorry about my previous post. i guess i should have given u the full trust and not be so suspicious about everything. That is my fault. Anyways, i can feel that today is a better day le. everything seem so much smoother. God, thanks for your quick reply to me. i know that i have forsaken you. But u have never forsaken me.
Feeling so much better but am feeling a headache..... feel so tired.... Hope that i will feel better by the time i go to work.... 1 more day and its our 2nd month already. So looking forward to that. Tml no work and i can go catch up with the rest of my brothers, like Jovin Windez and Jason.... After that will go over to meet you. Really hope to cya tml as it is our 2nd month....
God is great, Dear is great.... Everything is great :p
♥
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12:09 AM
My cute Dear with Min min in sch uniform
1 question:
Am i still that mr nice guy that i was??? I dun feel the same.... Feeling myself drift further and further away of what i deem as being nice. Anyways, what is the definition of being nice? Haha i dunno. Have been feeling a stress within me recently... Felt as if i had a split personality... its either that, or my mood swings have been more frequent recently.... wanted to go for a haircut today. Apparently, Summer saloon is not open on Tuesday. Wanted to HMV to get Muse's new live performance DVD, apparently HMV is not ordering that dvd. Wanted to go pei dear dear, apparently she has to work on her composition which have to be submitted soon. I dunno but today is not a very smooth day for me. Everything seems to be taking a turn for the worst. Mayb that have caused me to be disillusionised. Went Speedy, played DOTA, edited the compo. Dear dear sounded so tired..... Guess i am complaining alot today but today was a wierd day for me.... It all started out so well and now i am all shagged...... Is this what i can do when i dun haf work? If that is the case, i would have rather worked.... Pray tml will be a better day.
Jealousy is feeding on me. i have to stop it before it becomes an obstacle.... GOD, I NEED YOU!!!! Love is selfish? guess so in my case....
I am so sorry will try to change myself to not hurt you.... i love you dear!
♥
Monday, March 03, 2008;
10:21 PM
Happy!!! 1 word to describe my mood now. I feel so good. Its been a long time since i had such enjoyment. Dear, i am really happy today. My emotions lay bared to you.. And you really helped me so damn much in managing myself...
Life is great when i can get to cya through this week. I felt lethargic before i saw you. Anyways, i had fun at mahjong also... Though i lost money....
Anyway, i swapped memory sticks with you today. haha can get to c all your cute pictures and some of them, i may save it in my harddisk... To be frank, its difficult getting my eyes off you. I dunno how you did it. But u have been adding in so much more colors into my life...
Slacking the whole day through is also like working worx.... haha.... lets take a look at my schedule and what i did since morning!
10am: wakes up
1030am: eats breakfast/use laptop
11am: preparation to go out
1130am: heads out
12pm: at darryl's house mahjong
430pm: goes meet Xue Yan
8pm: sends Xue Yan home
830pm: takes bus back to darryl's hous
945pm: reaches his hous
11pm: eat dinner
Wahahaha how cool is that??? anyway, i still find it more relaxing than working..... haha enjoyment makes the day pass very fast.... haha
Love you dear, you are my life. Thanks for being there for me yesterday. Will be there for you too... Stay tuned for some pictures of my Dear that i am gonna upload..... Love you dear!!!
♥
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10:30 AM
Haha cant believe i pulled through a 12 hours of work on Sunday.... When i reached home, felt like updating my blog but i promised Xue Yan not to. Went to sleep at 1 am. Really to be frank, i did went online for a short period of time. Anyway, it was a boring day. Luckily there were small amounts of crowds and i was able to take quick rests in between. haha, And guess wad, Xue yan did acc me the whole day thru, keep asking me to jia you when i felt like giving up.
I am actually feeling very tired even at this point in time. Did not sleep well last night. Mayb cuz my mind was actually not totally switched off after a long day.
Dear, i am so sorry that i asked you so many questions yesterday. 1st, it is becoz i was bored and have got nothin better to do and 2ndly is becoz i am curious too...
Jealousy, i am feeling that i am starting to get jealous quite easily. Either that, or i have been thinking too much. However, i have let go of a huge load of burden after sharing it with you yesterday. Dear, i believe that our relationship is built on trust and i am willing to share all my problems to you, provided you are willing to listen...
Haha as from my blog update, guess u can feel the whole day was boring for me. But, these week is gonna get interesting as i can get to meet Dear more.... Stay tuned for my more interesting life this week ahead!
♥
Sunday, March 02, 2008;
8:20 AM
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Saturday, March 01, 2008;
11:38 PM
I am very tired. Extremely tired. But, i really did enjoy myself with you dear. Watching a movie twice to others may not be fun but with you, dear, was really a different thing. Enjoyed myself so much. Anyway, the movie i watched for the 2nd time was "L change the world". I know i am gonna be so dead later la working 12 hrs. Wah kaoz.... And this is not the only Sunday that i will be taking this kind of shift. Anyway, it is also good la.. Cuz i cant cya on Sunday also. So might as well go work. And i also know that Dear will support me de rite?
Some of the pictures we took after the movie as i was sending you home!
Anyway, thanks for coming down for the movie. I hope you enjoyed yourself as much as i did. Sorry having to rush you down from tuition for the movie as i scared later send you home too late.
Anyway, its gonna be our 2nd month this coming thursday... Haha cant wait for that day. Love my schedule for the next week. Monday, off from work (can meet xueyan) Tuesday, off from work (can meet xueyan) Wednesday, working night (cant meet xueyan) Thursday, off from work (can meet xueyan) Friday, working morning (can meet xueyan) Saturday, working morning (can meet xueyan) Sunday, working night (cant meet xueyan)... Look at that, 5 days can meet against the 2 days i cant meet.... Wahahahahahah
So gonna enjoy next week with you. But first, will have to Jy thru today... Next up, the photos from your bbq which you requested for me to upload for you.... But i will do it tml.... Now too tired to do it le.... Good Night to all
My posts are dedicated to Xue Yan!!! So is my life!
♥
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9:43 AM
I did not blog again yesterday night. The reason? I am very tired and my mind cant think carefully..... guess i am falling sick soon. I think i really need a break from work. That would happen next week where i am having many days break from work. Its time to give myself a break that is much awaited for. My schedule next week: Monday Tuesday Thursday: off... Haha this is realy what i have been waiting for. The best part is, i can meet Xue Yan on majority of the days if she is able to.
Back to today, Heng Yu and Michael actually visited me at work. So happen that Michael was giving a teaching and decided to pop by Mr Otaku's Cosplay House, which is where i work. They popping by was a surprise for me and at around 8+, Andrew popped by too. That was a even bigger surprise... Anyways, Heng Yu and Michael were off having their delicious dinner at that time. They came back at around 9pm to wait for me to end work... Haha Shalyn, thanks for staying and helping me till 8pm... Really appreciated. Jason also came down at 10pm and we went for supper at Mufiz, the ROTI PRATA shop....
Reached home at around 1am in the morning... Wanted to rest early but in the end, rested at 230am. Feeling so tired even up to now. Wondering how i would die tml in the shop but, i will take it as a chaotic week before my long awaited rest.
Dear, hope you enjoyed your BBQ. Really miss you.... So many days never gotten to cya but i know i can cya tonite. Love you dear!!!
♥